Well my sincerest apologies! I meant to write sooner… and then I remembered it was Prime Day. Long story short, I now have an order being processed through Best Buy because, well, I am just a super skilled person at doing things that don’t make sense.

So here’s the thing that I’ve been thinking about recently: I’m alone.

Okay, now before you get started, shut up with your “you’re never alone” and “you’ve got me” responses. For one thing, silver linings are basically what I do, so duh. For another thing, you know that’s not what I’m talking about. And for a third, hush and quit interrupting!

Let me explain with a quote from a book I’ve never read and a movie I think I fell asleep during…

Aren’t quotes fun?

Sometimes you’re like, ‘oh hey, that’s a fun quote’.

Other times it’s, ‘oh man, that gets me right in the feels’.

And then there’s ones like this… 😳😳😳

Moment of truth! I really enjoy being kissed. Like for real, I really miss it. Have I kissed boys on my journey? Sure. Am I kissing anybody now? Nope. Do I have friends that I talk to? Of course. Do I have that one person to entrust my whole day with? Negative.

Heart check. Do I wish I did? Yes… and no. See, this quote is insanely accurate. I like boys, and I like talking to boys. As a matter of fact, most of my closest friends are boys. But if I think back on my life as a whole, I see a girl whose oddly red face somehow has still been seen as attractive by boys, and she’s typically responded in kind, developing (or maybe admitting) that they’re attractive to her.

This isn’t meant to be a woe is me statement: but I don’t see that currently in my life… and, to be honest, it’s probably a good thing. I’m coming back into the girl who I really, truly am inside, and all I need to be focused on is her. She’s got strengths and weaknesses that need harbored. She’s got energy that needs to be focused. She’s got dreams that need to be worked towards. She’s got worth in her alone that needs to be valued.

And yet! To stir the pot, we’re getting into my favorite time of year. Everything will soon be warm and beautiful and full of the magic that is Christmas, and I’ll let you in on a secret… I desperately want to be kissed under a mistletoe… you know, that stuff that NO ONE hangs up anymore so it can’t happen anyway? Ha!

But all of that considered, I’ve been thinking recently about how maybe it wouldn’t be a bad thing for me to plan my Christmas season completely as a single chick. Was I single last year? Yes. Was I also misunderstanding a scenario even though I was single? Also yes. But not this year. This year I think it ought to be a planned thing.

If you remember, this Liz has been told by Eat, Pray, Love lady to sit with her loneliness, and I think that is actually a worthwhile directive. Like I said, I basically love kissing, and a mistletoe moment is on my bucket list, so it sounds like a daunting thing to agree to… but what if sometimes daunting is right?

I do have a favor to ask you though. Don’t pity me. Don’t pity me for being alone. Don’t pity me for my story. Don’t pity me that a book is stalking me. I am insanely blessed and believe that with every fiber of my being.

For right now, though it’s just me. Maybe it’s just you. Maybe it’s not. Whatever the case may be, you are always worth investing in no matter who’s around you. So do it. Invest. Date you. Love on you. Be content with you. Love hard whomever you need to love, but don’t forget about you. What I’m trying to say is…

Be good to you. Because you’re worth it. Just like I am. ❤